I don't understand how and why it happened, but I don't know why I love her as much as I do. I have never felt so strongly for another human being in my life. I have never wanted to give so much of myself for someone else ever. All I want is to love her, to spend my life with her, to have a family with her. I want it all. And all I ever feel is she's "unsure" about me. I wish she just knew. I want her to be sure that she wants to me with me. I want her to love me for all of my flaws. I want her to accept me as I am. Blah. I hate love. It's so confusing.