So, I'm pretty pumped about next weekend. Not so much this weekend, considering I'm on duty and have this stupid Race Dialogue thing that CA's have to do that is driving me borderline BANANAS! Well, anyways, next weekend is My Lauren's 26th birthday and I'm going to be making an appearance in Cleveland to celebrate with my darling. I am taking the bus (big thumbs down) because 1) my license is suspended and 2) because I don't want to drive my car down there now if I also plan on coming back home like three or four weeks later for winter break. I'm not going to lie, I'm kind of nervous about it, because there is GUARANTEED interaction between her friends and I (whom saying I strongly dislike is quite the understatement) but I'm really trying to get myself in the state of mind to just say "meh, fuck 'em" and really try to enjoy myself with Lauren as much as I can. I really want her birthday to be fun and I want her to feel special. I want to buy her an mp3 player for her birthday, but depending on funds, it may have to wait until I get paid at my next check. I do know that I'm DEFINITELY getting her a birthday cake, some balloons, and I really want to get her a Build-A-Bear, but I also know that I'm on a budget and can't be buying stuff all willy nilly. I'm kind of annoyed with my credit card because I was really looking forward to having a little more cash, but I guess I also have to pay off my damn Fairborn ticket already. I am so sick of all these damn tickets. I just got another fucking ticket in the mail today. What's my fucking luck, right?! Anywho, I wish my boss would write me back already about X-Mas break because I really would like to come back and work but, as usual, she's taking forever and that kinda bugs me because i don't like waiting around all willy nilly. Oh well. I also want to make sure I look FABULOUS when I go home for my babe's birthday. I know she's going to look A-MAZING and so I have to show up and look my best as well. I can't believe she's going to be 26 freakin' years old. She'll be 30 in four years!!! That's crazy. It never really dawns on me that she's just about four years older than me. I really really really just hope that her birthday is great, no drama with me & her friends, with her family and her, and it's just a good weekend. I REALLY hope she stays DRUG FREE and that it's a great weekend. I miss her and love her so much! I just can't wait to hug her and kiss her all weekend and just be with her. I know it will be fun. Part of me is still considering driving, but it is very risky, especially with a suspended license. But, we'll see. Anywho, all I know is I love my darling and I am so excited to see her next week to celebrate her 26 years of life. And, I really need to workout already because I am o-bese.OHHHBESSEEE. It's actually pretty gross and I'm slightly disgusted with myself. When will the madness stop?! Can I just go back to how I used to be without a problem? Why am I so tempted to eat shitty food all the time?! MAKE THESE BAD HABITS GO NOW!